Masque

I took the plane,
Flew far away,
Didn't look back at all that day;
You thought me heartless,
You still do,
Never showed you what was true.
I smiled lightly,
Swallowed my tears,
I assured you, hid my fears,
I convinced you,
Said we'll meet,
But I felt broken, I felt beat.
You showed your pain,
Shouted back,
Blamed me for emotional lack...
I accepted
All you said.
My heart to steel that day I made.
For three months now
I've been through hell.
Clammed up, drew into my shell.
Can't lie no more!!!
Feel caught in a net,
Truth is all that you'll get.
I miss you too,
I miss you bad,
Pain's so much it drives me mad.
Distance kills me,
Can't take the pain;
Trying to numb and shut my brain,
Trying hard to
Laugh and smile,
Trying hard to spend a while,
Trying to live,
Though you I need.
Though I know well I'll never succeed...